Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Holiday Lake 50k 2014

I decided I needed to start writing race reports. There are a lot of people who ask me about races, so I figured I need to give some insight into how they go. So this is my first attempt at one of these things.

From the beginning of last week, I was worried about what Holiday Lake would be like if we really got this supposed 10-12" of snow. Truth be told I complete forgot about the snow until Friday night. Then I got the worst pre-race jitters I've ever gotten. I decided that I would just focus on having fun, chatting with people, and encouraging anyone I came across. Seemed like a solid idea, considering I wouldn't be setting any personal records with the snow.

So my fiancée, Kati, and I drove out to Holiday Lake at a ludicrous 4:30 AM to make sure that we could find a place to park with plenty of time. Unfortunately, I had to wake my roommate Greg up who I had forgotten to tell that I was leaving early. I started off the morning flustered already that I had forgotten to tell him that.

When we got to the race, I spent most of the morning in the car, relaxing. I figured there was no need to be anxious. Kati and I walked down at about 6:20 and it sounded like they were getting ready to start. I told Kati I wasn't worried, though, because I hadn't heard the national anthem yet. Things were fine. We always sing the national anthem before Horton's races. It's honestly probably my favorite thing about them. We slowly meandered to the back of the group and right as I thought, "When are we going to sing?", Horton yelled "ALRIGHT GO!" and we were off! At least, the race started. At the very back of the group, I immediately realized that I had a LOT of people to get past if I wanted to keep up with anybody I knew.

As we got up the road I realized just how bad the bottleneck was. Every year I've run with someone who wanted to start off quick to avoid the bottleneck at the stairs. I never realized how bad it actually was. So I sprinted up the hill next to the stairs and started dodging through people. It was incredibly tough but exhilarating to jump through snow, dodging people and trees to get to a good running pace. Even without a headlamp, the snow reflected enough light from others' lamps that I was fine. I had a feeling already that this was going to be a tough race, but a fun race.

Once the road opened up I already realized that this was going to be a very cold, wet, and muddy race. Through the trees everyone seemed to take the same trail. On the first wide road everyone seemed to go a completely different direction and there were a million different footprints. Time to suck it up and just get through whatever I could. The first section went by incredibly slowly (or maybe I was just so concerned with passing people) and by the time I got to AS 1, I was just excited to see Frank Gonzalez and Sam Dangc, people I knew. I asked Sam to just top me off with fluid and took off again. I need to keep passing people. Apparently I passed Bethany Williams at some point. I only figured it out later because I recognized her shirt when I saw her later. But other than her, I still couldn't find anyone I knew.

When I got to the first creek, I tiptoed across rocks to avoid getting any more wet than I needed to be. I REFUSED to be soaking wet this early. Hopefully the big creek was low. It wasn't. The people in front of me slowly waded through the creek and I decided that wasn't for me. I launched myself off the land and thankfully made it through with only three big splashes. I don't think the other runners appreciated the water I slung everywhere. I didn't ask.

The tire tracks Dr. Horton left on the next section were a welcome relief. I didn't know how long they would last, but all I knew is that I loved them. I could run on these forever. I knew they wouldn't be forever, though. I came to AS 2 and said hi to Brenton Swyers. I asked him how far ahead our friend Clifton Williams was. I was hoping I had done at least SOME significant catching up. Still 3 or 4 minutes. I didn't know if I would be able to catch up, but I would certainly try. Last year I ran way too hard trying to catch Brenton, and I was resolved not to be that stupid again.

Soon after I FINALLY saw someone I knew: Robbie Shull. He was lead a pack of 2 or 3 people and I figured I could use a rabbit for a while, too. I fell in line to catch my breath so I could be REALLY excited when I finally spoke up. I don't think he realized that I followed him for almost a mile before passing and saying "You've been such a great rabbit! Here, I'll do the trudging" and got in front. He looked like he was doing well for his first ultra. In retrospect, I should have stuck with him for a little longer, if not indefinitely. He ran a great pace.

AS 3 came up quick and Todd Thomas and Blake Edmondson were there! They would be a huge encouragement for the day, and I was stoked to see them. They were cheering everyone on and it gave me a bit of juice. Any encouragement is welcome after the section between AS 2 and 3, which is always the worst part of that course, but especially today.

The front runner passed a lot later than last year, which gave me hope that I was running well. I didn't know if I was running well or running harder than I should, but I was hoping the former.

As I was coming up to the dam, I noticed Alexis Thomas on a switchback. I think I yelled "Alexis!" but I can't remember. All I remember is that I was worried. I always tell Alexis I hope to be as fast as a girl as her someday, but I know she's faster. When I caught up, I asked her, "Alexis, are you having a bad day or am I running way too hard?" I already knew the answer. Unless she was having a terrible day, I needed to slow down to have something left. I stuck with that group for the last mile of the loop until I saw Clifton coming out of the turn. We all said hi and I was impressed. He must have been running like a crazy man! Or he's going to burn out. Either way, I hoped I could catch him. Todd and Blake were again at the aid station and they snapped a couple pictures. They were the heroes of the day, pushing and encouraging everyone. They really highlighted the race for me. I took it easy coming out of the loop and unfortunately never saw Alexis or Clifton again.

After the turn I started getting slower and my hip started hurting. I figured it was nothing and kept repeating one of Horton's mantras, "It never always gets worse". I figured it would go away. I just needed to keep pushing. I saw Frank again running the course and he sounded surprised. "Look at you!!" He knew how far back I was at AS 1. I guess I had caught up a lot of ground. It was encouraging.

I came into AS 5 as Blake snapped pictures. I wasn't feeling well and told myself coming up that I needed to tell him I didn't feel very aware. I knew I needed something, I just didn't know what. He told me to eat. DUH. Why didn't I think of that? Solid life advice. I ate some potatoes and started back at it.

That's when the hip pain started getting bad. Really bad. Like, taking-your-breath-away bad. I started walking every single uphill no matter how steep. Lots of runners started to pass me until, when I moved out of the way for one of them, the runner started literally pushing me down the trail. I turned around and it was Robbie again. I told him good job and keep going! He was going to finish his first ultra really well. With a quick smile, he was out of sight twice as fast as I passed him the first time. Eventually I wandered into Brenton's aid station and I told him about the pain. We talked for a bit and I'm not ashamed to say I spent 4 or 5 minutes there. I wanted to enjoy the race and not hurt. Bethany Williams came up on us and she passed me less than a mile later. Brenton and I bragged on Clifton, her husband for how well he was running.

Right before the creek crossing, I caught up with a guy standing where the trail turned left and the forest road went right. He was confused and I jokingly wondered who would ever mix that up? There was a streamer off to the left right where the trail is. Well, a couple miles later Hannah Bright comes flying up behind us on an uphill. This was her first ultra, too. She recognized me and we chatted and she said that she had accidentally gone the wrong way (at the streamer!) and went an extra mile and a half. She was determined to catch her friend Keely O'Keefe, who had passed me just a couple miles before that. She was excited when I told her Keely was only a couple minutes ahead and took off.

When I finally got to the last AS I hear Frank yell "What are you doing all the way back here?!" and I told him about my hip. He and Sam gave me some ibuprofen and tums and told me to get back out there. Frank said "When you hit the finish line, you're going to feel so good you're just going to keep running!" I immediately thought of Forrest Gump and decided if anyone asked me where I had been at the finish, I was going to tell them "I was running!" like Forrest Gump. Those jokes are always funny.

The last 2 miles were full of people who needed a little encouragement, and I loved getting to push each and every one of them. Even though I could feel the hip pain any more, I could tell that my hip wasn't right, but I was going to finish! Coming down the road I wasn't even running full stride, but hobbling the best I could. All I knew is that Kati was waiting for me and the sooner I finished, the sooner I was getting a kiss from my fiancée. As I came into the finish I heard Horton yell my name "Andrew Charron! He got best blood a couple years ago and now he's limping into the finish line! Best limp I've seen all day!" I'm just glad I was the best at something!

I saw Clifton and congratulated him on an incredible race and most of the people I knew had already finished. Even through the pain, the snow, mud, and muck, it was honestly probably my favorite race to this date. Thanks to people like Brenton, Sam, Frank, Todd, and Blake for making aid stations a consistent relief from the trail and a wonderful woman to get a congratulatory kiss from!

I have to say I will never forget Holiday Snowliday Lake, 2014.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

El Roi

This is a name I'm becoming very familiar with, El Roi. When life is in shambles or it's just bumpy, El Roi is a comforting name. My life isn't even close to "in shambles", but life is bumpy right now. Rough roads make for tough spirits, though. A friend of mine introduced me to a quote, "Easy roads make sleepy travelers". And though the road is rough, it's better to be awake and growing than sleepy and dying. May your road is bumpy too, right now.

Well El Roi is the name that Hagar gives to God in Genesis 16:13. To give you context, Hagar doesn't say this in a moment of theological classification to say "God has eyes".
Hagar doesn't say this in a moment of overstating the obvious that since God knows all, he must see what is happening.

Hagar cries out in this naming of God in distress, saying "You see me in my need. And I know you care." Read Genesis 16 and you can hear her distress.

Whenever I read this I always hear a melody from a song by Bethel Music. Whenever I hear this song I always think "El Roi" especially when I hear the comforting declaration "NOTHING is hidden from Your sight. Wherever I go, You find me!"

Whether financial troubles, broken relationships, failing health, or any other moments where life isn't measuring up to the life that God originally intended in Genesis 1, there is comfort in these words. To know that God has "plans for good" (Gen 50:20, Jer 29:11) in pain and distress.

You have been
And You will be
And You have seen
And You will see

You know when I rise and when I fall
When I come or go, You see it all
You hung the stars and You move the sea,
And still You know me

And nothing is hidden from Your sight
Wherever I go, You find me
And You know every detail of my life
And You are God and You don't miss a thing

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

The Power of "0"

I happen to love numbers. Numbers don't change. 1 always means 1 of something. Maybe it's 1 basketball versus 1 kernel of corn, but 1 is always 1. Even if it's 1 group of chickens, 1 group is still 1 group.

I think 0 is more important of a number, however. 0 isn't -1. It's not a debt owed. It's just a measurable deficiency. There's tons of opinions as to where the number 0 came from but ultimately, I don't think it matters. What intrigues me is how powerful 0 is.

0 can be a stark reminder of what is not there. You may have $0 in your bank account right now and that makes life stressful and hard. You may have 0 jobs which is very similar. You may have 0 significant other, or 0 spouse (this is one of those areas where 0 or 1 is the only appropriate number to have).

You can only measure 0 when you think about something you don't have and you realize, "How many ____ do I have? None. Zero. Nada. Zilch." It's admitting there is something we don't have. And most likely, we want what we don't have. Realizing 0 in our lives is powerful!

In that moment you have one of two responses. Jesus even seemed to acknowledge this truth.
Luke 9:58: Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head.”
Jesus doesn't seem sad about have 0 place to rest his head. He's content. He knows there are more important things, and most of all it's following His Father's will. This is right in the middle of a section of scripture talking about announcing the Kingdom of God. He sees what He has 0 of in His life, and He declares in the context of His statement that following His Father's

And then you have the second response of two other guys who don't follow Jesus because they say "But my father is dying! I'll have 0 fathers soon!" or "Let me say goodbye to my family! I'll have 0 family members around me soon!" and realizing 0 in their lives pulls them away from following Jesus.

When I look at my life I'm beginning to ask myself which response I have to the powerful 0's I see in my life.

I have 0 spouse. Do I truly believe it's still better to follow Jesus now?
I feel like I have $0. Do I truly believe it's still better to follow Jesus now?
I feel like I have 0 understanding of the future. Do I truly believe it's still better to follow Jesus now?
I feel like I have 0 friends around. Do I truly believe it's still better to follow Jesus now?

What do you have 0 of? Do you truly believe it's still better to follow Jesus now?

Monday, July 4, 2011

That is Who You Are...

If I'm honest, I can get through life with relative ease.

I find that I do not need people. I do not need things. I sometimes can even go without money. More often than not, I find that I can turn on auto-pilot, ignore what's going on around me, focus on my goal and get there.

But that goal, when I arrive, is never truly satisfying.

If the goal is money, I always want more. If the goal is fame, I'm never famous enough. If the goal is pride, someone is always better. If the goal is a woman, there's always someone prettier.

We all do this. If we aren't able to admit it, we all see it. We all jump at the opportunity to point out someone who is sustained by money, greed, lust, fame, negativity or anything else it may be.

When it comes to created things there is nothing that fills a soul that longs to constantly be filled. Whether this is our own, or others'.

I have nice clothes. Clothes that will never satisfy me.
I have an iPhone. An iPhone that will never completely satisfy me.
I have a very expensive and very exquisite guitar. An instrument that will only disappoint in its inability to fully and completely satisfy me.

When it comes down to it, God is all that will fully satisfy me. I hate cliches, but the statement is no less true. It only becomes cliche when the zest and power behind it is gone, which at times, it is for me.

So this is what the Holy Spirit brought me to today to curb this fickle, wandering, unfaithful heart that yearns for satisfaction in the wrong places. A desire to never be satisfied without knowing who God is more.


O God, You are my God, earnestly will I seek You; my inner self thirsts for You, my flesh longs and is faint for You, in a dry and weary land where no water is.

So I have looked upon You in the sanctuary to see Your power and Your glory.

Because Your loving-kindness is better than life, my lips shall praise You.

So will I bless you while I live; I will lift up my hands in Your name.

My whole being shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and my mouth shall praise You with joyful lips

Psalm 63:1-5

Monday, March 14, 2011

The World Race and Walk In Love Clothing

There are few moments that I find myself in where I say, "People need to hear about this".

The moment is here. Twice. If you can give, please lavish on these people however God calls you to!

1) The World Race is a service journey that gives people the opportunity to visit and serve in 11 countries in 11 months. I know people who have returned from this journey broken for serving people. These "Racers" lives are not the same, nor the lives of the people they encounter. A friend of mine, Amiee Wood is one of those racers. She is serving men, women and children of all shapes, sizes and colors. You can read about it here: http://amieewood.theworldrace.org/. She needs support, though. As of March 9th, she needed $1,258 and her deadline is April 1st. If you can, please give! Help her bring the gospel and servant-hood to quite literally, the corners of the earth.

2) Walk in Love clothing is a gospel orientated fashion company in Lancaster, PA. Their name comes from Ephesians 5:1-2: Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and WALK IN LOVE, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. I've had merchandise of theirs for less than a month and had multiple people comment on them. What an easy opportunity to bring the gospel to a very religion polluted country in a way that grasps culture exactly where it is? Walk in Love is trying to open a store to do this and needs as of today $21,355 by April 1st. If you can, PLEASE GIVE! These are people who are using their God-given talents and passions to reach people in whatever way will hit them closest to home.

If you can't give, then spread the word! Tell others about these people and their passion!!! It's not everyday that I get emotional about things, but these people truly are seeking out ways to bring the gospel to (in some cases literally) the doorsteps of those who need to hear it!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Day 25 - "If I sing at the top of my lungs it won't say a thing if I haven't love."

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I knew coming into this project it would bring a new perspective on things I had never before imagined. I have been through times of solidarity, I have been times of speechlessness, and I'm still trying to find "my story" among a sea of what seems uncertain sometimes.

Today I realized two very big things:

1) I have something to say
2) I don't love people nearly enough.


There's got to be a reason why anything Seth Roberts (Watashi Wa, Lakes) does immediately hits home for me. I'm not sure what it is, but every word of this song relates to me in some way.

I find that there are times in my life where I have to go at it alone. May it be for a day or a year, aloneness has been very much a part of my life. Likewise, I have spent months going to bed thinking that there was no way I would make it through my life. But the best parts of my life are the moments where I know God has me so close there is nobody around but Him. He is close, I am so empty and I couldn't be happier.

Through all of this I have a story to tell. But without love, it means nothing. To do "nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit..." or to "value others above yourselves" is difficult. I said this morning to a room full of teenagers that this world makes it really easy to see others' selfishness and avoid our own. Philippians suggests that sharing in the Holy Spirit of God, bringing joy to other believers and sharing in one love entails holding others' needs over your own (Phil 2:4). Can we honestly say we do that?

Can we honestly say that in the story we have to share, that above everything else, we have love? Because otherwise, it doesn't matter. And you will know it when everything comes crumbling to the ground.

"The plans that I make... they fail miserably."

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Day 21 - "I'd freeze the frames, if I had the choice. I'd take you back for just a day"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

There isn't anything too special about this post. God has been blowing my mind, and I've been thinking about my childhood a lot. How it has affected my life for better and for worse. This is my favorite band, and often they can pierce a lot of shells and cut to the heart of emotions.

This song makes me think of a great day. A friend and I could take bikes, ride down the hill by my house and go downtown... go towards the classy parts of Lynchburg, Rivermont and Boonsboro. Warm sun, cool breeze. Man I can't wait for summer.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Day 18 - "I will live to love You! I will live to bring You praise! I will live a child in awe of You!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I have been serving with, in my incredibly bias opinion, what I believe to be the most highly concentrated group of people yearning after the most intimate places of God's heart I have ever experienced. It's not a doubt of mine that it is chalked up 100% to the Holy Spirit and sovereignty of God that could bring about such an amazing desire for change and life in the hearts of people that walk through our building.

This was the first song I ever sang there, and one of the most emotion filled times of worship I have ever encountered. It's been on my heart the past couple of days, and true to this experiment, something that should be shared.
The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You


With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You


You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name
Joel Houston:

An amazing female version as well:

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Day 15 - "How great Your love for us! How great our love for You!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

Sometimes we feel like scripture needs some cultural adjustment. I have felt like nobody understands (and even recently almost told a couple people to their face that they don't). I have felt like this journey is mine to do alone. God never runs, though. No matter how insistent you may be that "Everything is alright" or "I'm fine" or "It's really no big deal" in feign insecurity, God is always there. He knows exactly when to pursue you even when you don't. He is strong, He is merciful, He is above all things... great. And great needs no cultural adjustment.
Oh, thank God—he's so good! His love never runs out. All of you set free by God, tell the world! Tell how he freed you from oppression, then rounded you up from all over the place, from the four winds, from the seven seas.

Some of you wandered for years in the desert, looking but not finding a good place to live, half-starved and parched with thirst, staggering and stumbling, on the brink of exhaustion. Then, in your desperate condition, you called out to God. He got you out in the nick of time; He put your feet on a wonderful road that took you straight to a good place to live. So thank God for his marvelous love, for his miracle mercy to the children he loves. He poured great draughts of water down parched throats; the starved and hungry got plenty to eat. - Psalm 107:1-9 (The Message)

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Day 14 - "My heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

Yes, I needed a 2 day break. :)

I don't know how to explain the large amount of things God is teaching me right now. I will say, however, that God is good, He is holy, and sometimes to get to God we have to wade through a lot of junk. It's funny, because many of the same scriptures that spoke to me early in my encounter with Christ still hit me between the eyes now, just in a different way. The same way with music.

Charlie Hall seems to be a musician that God uses consistently. As my friend Chris pointed out yesterday, I am a very emotional person and I seem to get crazy joy from some of the truths that are in Charlie Hall's lyrics. That sentence may not make sense considering the song below

And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain
For most people, a somber song would pull them down. Now, for me, it does in some settings. However! Think about how true these lyrics ring out! They may be very Ecclesiastical, but there are times for weeping, for singing, for dancing, for mourning. There are different seasons, and with each one brings a very unique perspective to God!
They who sow in tears shall reap in joy and singing. He who goes forth bearing seed and weeping [at needing his precious supply of grain for sowing] shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him. - Psalm 126:5-6 (AMP)
I'm not sure that I would say there can't be joy without tears, but there certainly can't be reaping without sowing. I just said to my friend Andy today that in my finite mind, good and evil have to exist to understand either. Regardless if that is true or not, I know that I know the joy of God from the pain I have experienced. The title of this post speaks of a focus on higher things. The subsequent line says "So in faltering or victory, I will always sing!"

I hope that while you're reaping or sowing, you're singing. And sing loudly.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Day 12 - "I don't know perfect conversation and I don't know the way to turn a head"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

Maybe it's the fact that February is in full swing and Valentine's day is about a week away.
Maybe I have been desiring to play more guitar.
Maybe Dave Barnes is just amazing (read: incredibly handsome).
Maybe it's the series that we are going into that I've been praying about.
But I'm feeling a little sappy. And sappy is okay. And it's what's been in my head all day, and that was the very point of this experiment.

"Loving You, Loving Me" by Dave Barnes

"Nothing Fancy" by Dave Barnes

"Grace's Amazing Hands" by Dave Barnes and Marc Broussard

Friday, February 4, 2011

Day 11 - Sure?

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

Just a break. Here, listen to some Jonny Lang. He loves Jesus now.

"Only a Man" by Jonny and Haylie Lang

"Thankful" by Jonny Lang with Michael McDonald

"Beautiful One" by Jonny Lang

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Day 10 - "Holy is our God! Wonderful is He! Holy is the LORD Almighty!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

For a couple days now God has had this idea of his holiness on my mind and I can't get a couple of songs out of my head, the below being one of them.

Psalm 99:3
Colossians 1:22
Isaiah 8:13
Leviticus 21:8 (with respect to 1 Peter 2:9)

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Day 9 - "Let God arise! Our God reigns now and forever!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

For those who have been reading, I never truly intended to expound as much as I have been. However, I can say without hesitation that Christ has been changing my motives, my expressions, my excitement, my reactions, my love towards other people, and especially the song that is constantly on my heart. The biggest theme these past couple of days is God's eternal nature. His power and His reign over creation. Nothing flashy, no fancy words. Majesty. Holy. Holy. Holy.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Day 8 - "Our God reigns!!! Forever Your kingdom reigns!!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I have a bad memory, specifically short term. I forget about what God has done. Forgetting is a big part of why I write things down. God has used it in so many occasions though to bring Himself glory, though. I realized this when I was reviewing things I had written in this blog just two years ago (specifically the story of Norman, who you can read about here).

God brought the phrase "Your throne is immemorial" to mind today after the following song came on my Charlie Hall Pandora station. Granted, I did not know the spiritual tangent and subsequent high that I would find myself going through in the middle of Panera Bread hours later....
Psalm 93:2-4: "Your throne is established from of old; You are from everlasting. The floods have lifted up, O Lord, the floods have lifted up their voice; the floods lift up the roaring of their waves. The Lord on high is mightier and more glorious than the noise of many waters, yes, than the mighty breakers and waves of the sea!"
(Warning: If you do not get chills down your spine by how beautiful, exciting, and worshipful this is, you and I have very different personalities)

Monday, January 31, 2011

Day 7 - "I want it like it was back then! I wanna be in Eden!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I am an idealist. I usually think everything is butterflies and rainbows. Sadly, Genesis 2 shows us that we kind of messed that whole "perfect world" thing long ago. If they had not messed it up back then, I'm sure I would have botched this whole perfect world thing for us all. I hypothetically apologize to all of you for that. I am sure you empathize with one of if not both feelings; idealism and thinking you would mess it up if it had gotten this far.

I wanted to explain this idea of being in the Garden of Eden and what it would be like, the implications it has on how we live and how we should go about our relationships, friendships, marriages, and such but I just could not do it today. I tried to explain this idea about 6 different ways, but I kept revealing myself, not scripture so here's a song that's been in my head most of the day:

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Day 6 - "And you are breathtaking and breath giving!"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I am sad to say I could not find this song anywhere on Youtube, so I had to resort to Yahoo! Music.

There is not a lot to today, except that this song has been stuck in my head since ~8:45 this morning. We talked about pride this morning and we discussed 1 Corinthians 4:7:
For who separates you from the others [as a faction leader]? [Who makes you superior and sets you apart from another, giving you the preeminence?] What have you that was not given to you? If then you received it [from someone], why do you boast as if you had not received [but had gained it by your own efforts]? (AMP)
As a culture, we ask the questions like "What makes you better than everyone else?", "What makes you stand out?", or "What makes you so different". The change needs to come in the W word. Who makes you so different?

God is not only the source of preeminence, authority, and majesty but he is also the giver of these things. Since we talked about that this morning, Charlie Hall's "Bravery" has been stuck in my head. Check it out!!

http://new.music.yahoo.com/charlie-hall/tracks/bravery--28827811

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Day 5 - "Love is a waiting game. Time is enough to make the best fall apart"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

First of all, let me say that undoubtedly my favorite band / music is anything Seth Roberts does. Yes this is a shameless plug but if you doubt, go to www.lakesband.com. The main reason I'm so drawn to it is because so much of it seems like this I would write but never could.


The music coincides with what I've learned in large part this week. I will say unashamedly that I love my friends. I love the people I work with. I love my family. I don't say I love them like Larisa Oleynik loves her Prada backpack in "10 Things I Hate About You". I mean I love my friends, I want the best for them, and if you are in my life to any degree which shows my concern or pursuit, I will probably sacrifice any and all things to build that relationship.

Patience, however, is not my strong suit. I want things now. In fact, if I have to finish the sentence and I don't have it, it's too long. You probably relate in some area whether it's loving fast food, always wanting to watch your favorite show but can't wait 6 minutes for it to be on, freaking out during a commercial break, or the biggest problem: wanting to text someone you just sent a text message to 3.5 minutes ago just to make sure they actually got the first text.

Text messaging has done two wonderful things: it has given us the ability to show people how much we care in the easiest way that has an opportunity to convey what love we can in at least a somewhat meaningful way and turned our society into instant gratification fiends.

I realized in a conversation (read: set of text messages back and form. not synonyms) today that I am typically quicker to voice a brash opinion over text messages which is actually the exact opposite of what I should aim for. James 1:19 says:
Understand [this], my beloved brethren. Let every man be quick to hear [a ready listener], slow to speak, slow to take offense and to get angry." (AMP)
I don't see anywhere in there where it says "Just say whatever you want." This does not mean that I will be completely giving up text messages like I have some music any time soon. This does mean, however, that I will be answering text messages slower from here on if I don't just call you in response. I hope you'll be patient

After all, it's a hard thing, patience.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Day 4 - "I will love you for you. I will give you the love, the love that you never knew"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

I want to say thank you to people already following this journey. It's funny that I would start a journey like this and have such immediate spiritual attack happen. It's actually encouraging! It means that I am doing something that is moving someone's heart towards God somewhere. I have woken up with a song in my heart of God and woken up pretty quickly (which is something that is hard for me). If I stopped today, this entire project would be a success. But I have promises to keep, and miles to go before I sleep.

Today is simple: Thank you to Marilyn Carrasco for recommending JJ Heller during this journey o' mine (and I encourage anybody to contribute or recommend music I should investigate. I don't care what genre or style at all!

Honestly, sometimes it's better to just let music do its thing so I'm going to let God encourage you through JJ Heller. I hope you connect with a story somewhere, I know I do.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 3 - "Cause we have all we need in you"

For those just joining us, read Day 1's caveat.

For those who have not heard this idiom before, "The Refiner's Fire" suggests trial, stretching and pressure that someone endures in hopes of refining them to be better. The hard part is that as Christians, we all want to be better but we don't want to be improved. We want to be refined, but we don't want to go through being refined.

Whether it is trying to calculate how you will pay $100 more in bills than you have money, feeling like one of your best friends is mad at you (or even feeling like you're losing one of your best friends), feeling like you are a corporate pawn, feeling completely alone or looking at your life and having no idea where it is going, there seems to be something always in our way (and those are specific examples from my life and others this week).

I don't do well when friends and I aren't on the same page. So when this song came on directly after 2 different people either said or showed that my input in their life was neither wanted nor appreciated, it immediately penetrated my heart.


The main reason it penetrated my heart is how much faith I put in people. We don't think of ministry, "Christian music", or people who point us towards God of idols. We think, "I trust this person's opinion because they point me to God". We eventually get to the point, however, where we turn to that person for comfort, advice, or solace and not God. We think that we cannot get through the fire without that person. In all reality, we cannot get through the fire with anything but God.

My biggest prayer is that I would trust that I am taken care of. That He is truly ALL I need. After all, Jesus is better than the waves.

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? - Matthew 6:25-27 (NIV)